Life is a funny thing.

I've been looking forward to my 21st birthday like most people do, ever since I was at a younger age, probably around 12.

I've always told my mum how I wanted my 21st birthday to be.

Ever since my sis started to celebrate birthdays for me, my expectations for my birthday every year got ever higher.

But this year, when the day has finally arrived, all the desires and wishes I used to hope my 21st birthday will have, have, diminished.

Actually, it wasn't the exam mood that made me put off the idea of celebrating it in a grander way.

Just that, you know, sometimes life is just this funny.

Somehow I did not want this day to come.

Somehow I did not want to make this celebration big.

This is one of the simplest birthday I had in 7 years.

But this is the birthday that I received so much love from people around me.

Text wishes, Facebook wall posts, gifts and well-wishes... they are all important to me.

It's no longer the attention-seeking, high profile celebration and singing of birthday song with an enormous cake that make the difference anymore.

Maybe I've grown up, to a more mature individual, to realize that sincere wishes are the best presents that a person can ever receive on their birthdays.

The most looking-forward birthday just pass by like that, this simple.

I'm absolutely satisfied with this arrangement. Although it's nothing memorable, I received all the love.

My dearest rabbit is the best present. My mother's ring and the vintage gold key pendant with lots of blessings attached to it, the effort for my beloved family to make time for the simple dinner.....

My 21st birthday is all completed.

I guess I won't be looking forward to my subsequent birthdays anymore... because I seriously do not want this day to end (but it still did).

Some friends whom I have known for many years, I have never once forgot about their birthdays.

I'm not expecting them to remember my birthday, but I wish at least for one of the years, even if they've seen it from Facebook and not etched in their memory, to wish me a simple line of "Happy Birthday". It has never came true, but it's those whom I least expected to wish me, wished me.

It was very much appreciated... and I really love them for the simple gesture of expressing their wishes to me.

I used up 2 birthday wishes this year but I'm not saying it here.

It will come true. :)

I'm officially 21...

The path ahead will be much more wonderful.

And my life has just started.

I wish all of you, all the best in everything you do, and to always believe that life is wonderful.

I wish myself, all the best too, and may my wishes come true.

TIll then.

General Election 2011 fever is up and running, and increasing as we draw nearer to the voting day.

This has been the most exciting round of election I have ever seen. There could be more exciting rounds even way before I was born but that's not the point now.

I am supposed to be reading and writing my notes for Sociology but I really couldn't take it anymore but to take out my MacBook and start penning this entry. I put it down for a few days, but I still couldn't keep my views to myself. Facebook is simply not enough.

I am not one of the voters this year but why am I so concerned about the election this year? I am never a politics person but the raging comments that were literally running down on PAP somehow made me feel that I should voice out my opinions.

Originally I was taking a neutral stand though I never have had any positive feelings for any of the opposition parties but I think they deserve a chance to prove themselves. After reading all the negative comments that were given by our very own Singaporeans on the PAP, I feel there's a need for Singaporeans like ourselves to stand out and support the PAP.

People are now complaining about the PAP using the taxpayer's money to invest in other countries and lost billions of dollars, complaining about the increasing ERP gantries, complaining about the high prices of HDB flats and the list goes on.

I realized a lot of people are turning to the oppositions not because they believe in their abilities to bring them a better and new Singapore after the elections, but a helpless hope that the oppositions will not do the same things like the PAP and will give the citizens a better standard of living. This is pathetic, in my personal opinion, because is the PAP really that disappointing that they have to helplessly pin their hopes on the oppositions who have never been the dominant voice in the Parliament?

Other things aside, let's first talk about the contributions that PAP has given us (even the supporters of opposition parties) all these years when they were the ruling party:

Political stability: This is actually quite embarassing now to talk about this but this is the first and foremost important contribution that we Singaporeans can be proud of. When the news are telling us whichever countries are having disputes with the governments and strikes are everywhere, Singapore can proudly give themselves a pat on the shoulders and say that we never and never will have these problems. From the current looks of it, it seems that this good view of our political stability is coming to an end soon. Going back to the point, haven't we been enjoying great political stability all these years since independence? What will become of the country and ultimately our lives if there are no stability in the political system? You want low price HDB flats? You want low GST? You want low costs of living? You can have that, but what do all these say about the life you're leading? Rich? Sufficient? No. Probably living in poverty that's why properties are not valuable and therefore low price and no one has enough money to even pay for the GST that's why low percentage.

Valuable properties: Our properties can worth up to a million for some. Even a small HDB flat can go up to nearly $500,000. Prices may be high, but doesn't it mean that the economy is doing well that people are willing to pay the high amount of money to buy a flat?

Foreign talents: We are allergic to foreign talents. Ask yourself this: The smart Singaporeans have decided to start a new life overseas. How smart do you think Singaporeans are? If we are not geniuses, why are we feeling negative towards foreign talents? If they can transfer their expertise to us, why not?

You want to vote for the oppositions, no problem. But do you honestly believe that they can give you the same stability of the country that PAP has given us all these years? If HDB prices are low, no foreign talents coming in, what do you think Singapore has become? Probably back to poverty.

If you want to gamble the future of Singapore for the next 5 years in the hands of people who never have experience in ruling the country, what else more is there to say?

Yes PAP made mistakes. But at least they have went through this path and know where they have gone wrong, and now that they have apologised it could mean that they will be more careful now and won't repeat the same mistakes. Most importantly they know how to tackle the concerning issues of Singaporeans.

How about the oppositions? Yes they saw the mistakes that PAP made and have never made mistakes like the PAP did. But that also mean they do not learn their lesson. They have absolutely no experience in ruling the country and very likely they will make mistakes as well and at the end of the day, are we all back to square?

Enough said. I have made my point very clear here.

You want to give PAP another chance to prove their ability and hitch on their rich experiences of ruling the country or give the chance to people who do not have any idea what has been going on in the parliament all these years - your choice.

Should the oppositions win and they did indeed do a good job in improving our lives, kudos to you and ourselves and I will reflect on my personal opinions on the oppositions.

If they fail and make things worse, let's not push the blame to anyone but ourselves for not opening our eyes big enough, for not being rational enough to vote the obvious.

伤口痛在你身上，疼在我心理。

你明明就很痛，又不能告诉我。

我那么疼你，对你比对自己还要好，为什么会发生在你身上。。。

你是那么的完美，那么的可爱可亲，为什么会是你。。。

你最骄傲的那双眼睛，如此的雪亮，透底，怎么会是你。。。

看着你很勉强的睁开受伤的眼睛， 我看了心有多痛你知道吗？

我必须照顾你，不能把伤心写在脸上，只能让眼泪往心里流。。

可是我知道，你知道我很担心你，你知道我为你操心，所以你不会让我心碎的。

你不能有事，不然我不会原谅自己的。

等一下要带你去看医生了。。。

你会复原的。。

我相信你。。

LOL I came to this page with a hell load of inspirations thinking this will finally be a good proper post in such a long time but people always say do not underestimate the power of the unexpected - my Internet is utterly slow and definitely failing me - yes you're right, I forgot most of the things that I've previously planned in mind.

Oh well, so is it that you don't have the honour to read or I don't have the luck to type out? I think it's the latter though.

Life's been pretty good and I guess Heaven's been fair to me - I have my fair share of happiness and sadness. Life is never smooth-sailing...

My first exams with UOL is around the corner and I am feeling the pressure. People always say "take it easy, take it easy". It's easy for anyone to say it out but it's really pretty hard for the person to do it. I would like to take it easy too, but is it really that simple?

I've been thinking a lot about my goals in life, what I want to achieve in few years' time and what do I want to see myself doing 10 years down the road.

I understand sometimes some things just won't go according to plan but failure to plan is equivalent to planning to fail which I personally think is very true.

Having a goal in life is very important because it keeps us going - when you have a goal, you work towards it and when you achieve it, it feels excellent. The wrong things that people always do in attaining their goals is that they exert pressure and stress on themselves in the process of achieving it. Putting pressure on oneself will make him or her unable to enjoy the entire process. The process of achieving your goals should be sweet - it is a process that you can only go through once and that's it. The process to attaining another goal is another thing all together.

Having said that, believe it or not, I'm making the same mistake. I have my goals laid out in front of me and what I'm doing now is exerting pressure on myself. The process to studying and getting ready for exams should be sweet. :) I know it sounds insane, but trust me, look at it this way and things will be easier, and some things become beautiful when you really look. :)

I don't know if I can make it through this round, but I will do my very best because afterall time is precious and it ain't cheap.

When you reach a certain stage in life, the things you want will be different.

I have many different thoughts about life recently... about people... about friends... about relationships... about family... about everything.

Relationships between people are really amazing. It's strong when it exists, and disappears instantly when it breaks.

I have also come to understand that... Even if you put in 101% into a friendship/relationship, nothing can guarantee you that the person will stay with you. When a new person comes along, they will just turn their backs on you and all that both of you have gone through together, have gone with the wind.

When you're left alone wondering what on Earth have you done wrong to deserve this, the world slaps you with reality that the other party is already enjoying at the other side of the world.

It's ironic - who says when you're nice to someone people will appreciate you? :)

Who says when you are sincere to people they will do the same to you? :)

Of course not everyone is like that because I know I am not, some of my really good friends are not, my family is not.

It really breaks me to see a friendship turning into strangers, or to what Sociology suggests - Direct Socialization.

Is this an attempt to tell me you're such a person?

Thank you so much for your kind intention - I've got it now.

People come & go and not many stays with you through thick and thin.

A happy person I may seem to be, I do have times when I'm feeling low and need someone to confide in.

I'm so used to listening to other people telling me their problems, but I have neglected the problems that I'm facing.

I'm great at solving people's troubles but a total nut at solving my own.

I really hate this.

But this is life.

I told my mum that I will be a writer of novels if I can't find a job in future.

She said it's a "man's job". Hahahahahaha!

Ironically most of the novels I've read are written by fantastic ladies. Come to think of it, I only choose titles written by female writers. This is not gender discrimination but I personally really do feel that the writings by ladies are more sophisticated and sensitive, closer to how I am feeling as well. Maybe we are all girls, we know each other better and we understand better.

Novels are a great source of enriching your horizons (though not very a lot) and to find a peaceful mind of your own.

If you're free, take a walk at the libraries, pick a book that you think you will like. Sit down at a quiet cafe and enjoy the peace.

It can be a very good way to meditate. HAHAHA.

It's been a pretty long entry (and a very unorganized one at that).

Durkheim and Max Weber are screaming for me to flip them through my notes.

I promise to write better in future.

Till then.

Even though I have been searching for you for more than a year already, I have never really see myself to own you.

You have no idea how soft I was when I first saw your pic on my phone.

You have no idea how touched I was when I saw you in the cage.

You have no idea how excited I was when Wilfred brought you over.

You were shivering like a frighten mouse (yes I know you're a rabbit). Shaking so tremendously.

All I want to do is give you all my love, give you the best that I can give.

You're the first pet I really wanted to give you my all. You've only been here for slightly more than 24 hours, but you have no idea how fast you walked into my life, into my heart.

The sight of you melts me totally.

I teared at the fact that I can finally own you. In my eyes you're perfect. With your mesmerizing eyes and cute little gestures.

Even though I came home late but looking at you playing by yourself in your cage makes my day.

Even though you still pee-ed around the cage but I am still very glad that I can clean up after you.

Cleaning up is never a happy task but just for you, I am willing to do it for you for the rest of your life.

I even saw you in my dreams on the first night you were here.

Your fur is so soft, so fluffy.

It hurts me to see you getting so defensive when I tried to pick you up. It breaks me but I know you'll eventually be all mine.

I'm afraid of hurting you in whichever way I might have did it.

You're my precious. And no one can replace you.

I will take care of you for the rest of your life, till one day when you set off for paradise.

I will shower you with all the love that I could've ever given to any individual.

You're not just a rabbit.

You're the precious gemstone in my family.

You're my priority.

You're my love.

And you definitely deserve the best from all of us in the family.

I will protect you from any danger.

If you were to leave me one day (which I know you will and I hope you don't ever leave me at all), I know I will be heartbroken. But if you're setting off to a better place, I wish you all the best and I really want to see you receiving the best of everything.

No one has ever touched me the way you do. :)

Thank you so much for being here. For adding joy to the family. For adding colours to my life.

I really love you. :)

Breed: Dwarf Hotot

D.O.B: 11 Feb 2011

Current weight (as of 21 March 11): 300g

I wish you happy always, and grow up healthily.

You will receive the best from me. :)

Thank you piang piang and jie fu for making my wish come true, for bringing her to me.

Without the both of you I couldn't have done it alone.

I promise I will commit myself totally to her, I will be nice to her and never abandon her no matter what.

This is the best gift you've ever given me. :)

While waiting for the page to bring me here, I don't know why but my heartbeat increased.

It's not as if there will be any surprises waiting for me here.

This is not a good sign. LOL.

I haven't been here for quite some time and I wonder if any soul still remembers this space exists.

I'm sorry for the negligence but there's really nothing much to update.

The past few months have been good.

I have been good.

People around me have been good as well.

We are all fine.

Hope you are too.

If you're not, we can share all our happiness. :)

其实上天是公平的. 世上发生的每一件事情他都会给我们两条路, 选择却在于自己. 人家常说的”别无选择”, “走投无路”, 都是咎由自取.

因为上天给的两条路, 有一个是出路, 而另一条, 可能是死路, 也有可能是另一条出路. 如果你选择了的是死路, 那也是你的命, 因为它始终是你自己选的.

很多事情我们没有办法控制, 但唯有选择, 是我们可以主宰的. 在你做任何决定或选择之前, 请慎重考虑后果. 如果哪一天发现自己被逼到角落头, 没有后退的余地, 请想一下前因, 因为这样才有后果.

这些完全是我本人的看法, 你可以同意也可以不认同. 因为由始至终, 你的思想和想法是我无法控制的.

Will do up a summary of 2010 soon, as soon as I got used to using a smashed-looking MacBook.

You never know, but actually my heart is breaking inside.

As soon as I got used to using this pathetic MacBook, I'll get down to work. :)

Anyway, if you wanna use a blardy durable laptop, buy Apple.

This MacBook that I'm using now, got smashed by hands, on the table and almost smashed to the wall for 5 times and god.. It's still fucking doing well. No damages to the internal system at all.

Okay the cover looks quite horrible with dents all over and below, the mousepad's 5% of it cranky but hell, believe it or not, it's working as good as new. Even the battery doesn't fail me. How fucking awesome can this epic MacBook be?

You'll never believe this until you see it for yourself. If you're daring enough go smash your laptop as hard as you can.. You never know it can be this tough.

I'm impressed, seriously. Cos the Vaio Laptop broke into pieces (ok, the LCD screen) after one drop. TEEHEE.

To justify what I've said, try it on your MacBook.

(I'm not responsible for any damages done to your laptop if there are because you've chose to put it to risk just to prove that you can prove me wrong but sorry, you can't.)

Because I've since learned to keep things to myself...

I need to start a Food Diary...